Off to Portland
ok byeeee! Post later (*Ps I’m at 157, yikes! Need to be less when I come home…. )
“Every human being is the author of his own health or disease.” - Buddha
Am back up to 155 as of yesterday’s chaos. So today: Breakfast: about 1/4 of a doughnut that my father bought me, plain and glazed. about 1/8 cup of grapes Lunch: Green Giant ‘Just for One’ corn niblets (90 cals), and at work I had about 3 large handfuls of fries :/ Dinner: I know…. the fries were hard to resist ! Honestly working in such a yummy restaurant...
Wow. Mentally I was just so out of it yesterday because I went over 1,000 over my calorie intake and I am so frustrated with myself. I leave for Portland tomorrow and I wanted to be able to splurge there but instead I did this. I really don’t want to gain back my weight that I have worked hard for soo….. I really need motivation. I have no clue what has gotten into me.
Chinese Lunch Buffet ... fuck
So I splurged — there goes all of my hard work. Just got home from the Chinese lunch buffet and my thoughts are: totally was not worth it. Keep this in mind next time you are tempted by endless Chinese food, Elle. All my hard work for nothing! :( And I’ll be in Portland so soon and I’m going to a concert tonight— two reasons to look skinny! OH WELL. Over it. Today...
Fridays tend to be my splurge days. I leave for Portland Sunday so I can’t afford a splurge day right now — wish me luck!
So, I have eaten a little more than usual today but no splurging, everything I have eaten has been healthy. I think I was eating way to less and this way I’m not too miserable. Intake: Breakfast: Half a cup of grapes, decaf coffee + .5 tablespoon fat free hot cocoa in it, Blueberry bagel thins toasted with 1.5 tablespoon fat free cream cheese. Lunch: English breakfast tea, Orange jello...
Eat regular meals
lean-machine: Skipping meals can often lead to out of control hunger, which usually results in overeating. When you’re very hungry it’s also more tempting to forget about good nutrition.
So, yesterday I went shopping and tried on some stuff. In the dressing room, I grabbed some jeans hoping that I fit into a size 6-8 (I was dreaming big I guess) and I tried them on and none of them fit which was totally upsetting. On top of that in the mirror I noticed I have more cellulite on the back of my legs than I realized. I know I’m making improvements but I have to keep working...